Hey Models I have a question.Most of
you are in your mid twenties,are pushing 30 or are like me and ARE 30.Now I want to know how how much many of these adorers,stalkers and fans that we all talk to and try and help and just give general attention to have put into OUR BANK ACCOUNT?How much have they given us all that we will have to fall back on when modeling is no longer a option?This is why most of this is fairy glamour or as I call it bullshit we just try our best to exploit.And if ANY of you give me shit for daring to say this I will personally drive to where you are and beat your lunch out you.I have art as my job first and foremost so I don’t even have to think about something to “fall back on” as modeling is just something I do for added publicity for my art.And actually thankful in the aspect that I’m not chosen as a model because I’m pretty or youthful looking.I have more of the sort of Diamanda Galas thing going on where people just use me as a model because I’m a weirdo.BUT I’m damn fucking tired of there being no 50/50 as a model or as somebody that is treated like a free freak show to people.Especially if you don’t do nudity,which doesn’t even pay enough to make anything worthwhile.100.00 for say 200 photos and you have to split the 100.00 with the photographer isn’t shit.And if you aren’t willing to lay and spread you get even less and I’m sorry but I think it’s bullshit.
Dear fellows,if you are being friendly to be thinking you will eventually get in my panties.There is the exit door get the fuck out.I don’t believe in casual sex so you are wasting your time.Look do I REALLY look like the kind of girl that is a easy lay?Have I given you any hint of that with my sour and guarded disposition?If you like me you can take the time and court me properly,if you want to be my buddy you will be just THAT a friend and might as well get the thought of ever so much as seeing my drawers out of your mind.We clear?
Always marry for money,not for love.
I posted that statement awhile back and it got a large amount of responses both agreeing and disagreeing. I’m sure that sounds like a terrible bitchy thing to say,but let me explain myself. First off I say ALLOT of terrible bitchy things,it’s how I got the name Ugly.And I’m not male bashing,most of you male will even have to admit I am right about allot of the statements I will make.I’m not saying it’s always the case,but most of the time it is. I’m also sure that some of you think it’s a awful thing to say because what if past and or future mates of mine read it?Well that is one of the reasons I’m putting that statement into the Ethers. And second off let me explain that I’m using money as a metaphor in a way.The word Money can be replaced with effort,talent or ability.In other words a mutual give and take.I’m using money as a example because it’s the thing that somebody is the most reluctant to part with. This is one of my forked tongue lashings so don’t mind me. I just think that males should be made to always have to wonder,to feel insecure like females in a relationship do.That is one of the problems in modern straight male/female relationships.The female is always left with the same nagging thoughts in the back of their collective minds.That what if their mate is only with them till something better looks,money,sex or status wise comes along? Sadly the paranoia is usually justified. Women who really care for a man have emotions,love and the loyalty that goes with it that bonds them to the male,which is why they enter into the relationship with said male.If they really love them it will bond them to the male through thick and thin.If the women really loves the male she will stay with him if he gets fat,loses his job,gets sick/hurt or can’t have sex anymore. Now ladies tell me,tell me honestly from the bottom of your heart do you think that most of the males you have loves from your first love to your last, that you loved with your whole heart would have stayed with you under those circumstances?Would they have stayed and supported you in mind,body and pocket book? I think it would do all women kind some good ,if we were all more vocal about not just expecting love,but loyalty *allot of women don’t even demand that* and something,ANYTHING in return in a relationship. Love can be faked but supporting supporting somebody in a tangible manner cannot.Be helping support the household or doing something helpful again in a tangible manner to fighting verbally or physically to defend their woman. I have been with several male either friends or mates where I have had to worry about if a fight breaks out who will I fight for myself AND them.That should never be the case EVER!Chivalry is dead and most males my age piss upon it’s rotted bloated corpse.Maybe it’s because I’m southern but I’m horrified by the abuse against chivalry. I say NO MORE!It’s getting to be a epidemic in my generation and as I said NO MORE will I put up with or entertain that behavior of a male acting more like a twat then the females I know. I want it to be in the back of the mind of EVERY guy that is attracted to me *where that attraction is reciprocal or not* that to even be CONSIDERED as a potential mate they WILL BE EXPECTED to have something to offer,something to bring to the table set before me.
Let me climb right up on my good o’l comfy Ivory tower before I begin to preach.
I’m sureeee this post will piss allot of people off and good for the,getting the oil blood going is good for ya.LoL I never could see the allure of casual sex?Hell I don’t like having to take part in casual kindness or hell even being civil with people.
So the thought of a stranger or even somebody I know of know touching all over me in my most intimate areas grosses me out.I just have no desire to ever try casual sex.Maybe it’s because I’m a woman and we tend to me more emotional creatures I don’t know.
I’m just not into the whooooo whooooo lets see who can be the most drunk and slutty and do the most stupid crap and maybe have the digest # of gross men stick things in our warm holes.Knowing that they are just that,nothing more and nothing less then a warm hole to be used for a few min.
One of the 9 Satanic Statements in the Satanic Bible is “Satan represents kindness to those who deserve it instead of love wasted on ingrates!”
I have been having a kindness to those who deserve it instead of love wasted on ingrates preaching moment all month this month.
Voodoo also pretty much believes in the same thing.
The majority of us believe that if somebody comes to rely,even totally depend or worse abuse you help,you aren’t helping them at all.They will not grow in a social,moral or mental sense if they own ability to take responsibility for their actions or help themselves.
I have been scolding a few of the folks around me about letting people abuse them,I think we are all guilty of that.
Let me say here that I’m so so so not saying that you should be friends with people or help people with the intention that you will do that just to get something out of them in the long run,no no no no no!
What I’m saying is that the universe is build on BALANCE,and I think in some aspects that balance is one of the core principles of any religion.That doesn’t just go for people who practice pagan or left hand path religions.Even Christianity has the belief that “Breach for breach, eye for eye, tooth for tooth: as he hath caused a blemish in a man, so shall it be done to him again.” and “So likewise shall my heavenly Father do also unto you, if ye from your hearts forgive not every one his brother their trespasses.” which boils down to universal balance.
As I said before I have been scolding a few folks who are close to me about not letting themselves a doormat.We are all guilty of it,and like most things we are “guilty” of we are suppose to learn from it and GO ON.I have the personal belief that any bad situation in life at the very LEAST is a learning experience in that it teaches us what it is like to be in that situation,that way we can be sympathetic to people in the same situation and also we will learn if we can help it not to ever inflict that situation on someone else.
People can trick us into helping them,some people are just such dark spirits that they play the victim part so well,that you will end up being tricked into helping them before you help a person that is really in need.Again I don’t think the universe,God,The Gods or whatever you call it will let kindness even if it’s misdirected go unrewarded.But it’s best to be able to spot these types and not go through the heartache of realizing you gave up sanity and savings up to these people,again learn from it and go on to not do it again.
Plus there are sooooooo many people that really are deserving of help or even a kind word,most of the time the people really in need will be hesitant to ask for help,always beware of what I call “gimmie gimmie” people.If somebody asks you for help 10 times in one month,,is just a little bit to damn comfortable asking or worse telling you they need you help for this or that,or ask you for help with the dire situation of say “needing” some stupid frivols thing and if they smell of greediness grab yourself and RUN!Fool me once shame on you,fool me twice shame on me.
There are real needy people in this world.There are children with Cancer,people who have lost loved ones,even lost relationships with people close to them,people with sick loved ones,actual POOR people *not people who claim to be poor because they live beyond their means* and even people who have sick pets or pets that have passed on are actual people who deserve a kind word or a helping hand.
I know how immensely appreciative I was for people who just sent me condolences when Scooter passed on.It wasn’t a life threatening situation on my part,but just the fact that other people were kind enough to even write a note saying they were sorry for my loss was so touching to me I can’t put it into words,and I will truly appreciate it and the people that did that till the day I pass on,and even after that I will appreciate it.
Which also goes to show you that it doesn’t cost allot or even any money to help somebody in need.
Bake a pie for a friend who has been taking of a sick or disabled family member,take your friend for a walk that just had a bad breakup,offer condolences or kind words to those who have lost a loved one,send a box of cookies to a friend who is down and out.
Be kind to those who deserve it,and don’t waste love on ingrates.