Hey Models I have a question.Most of
you are in your mid twenties,are pushing 30 or are like me and ARE 30.Now I want to know how how much many of these adorers,stalkers and fans that we all talk to and try and help and just give general attention to have put into OUR BANK ACCOUNT?How much have they given us all that we will have to fall back on when modeling is no longer a option?This is why most of this is fairy glamour or as I call it bullshit we just try our best to exploit.And if ANY of you give me shit for daring to say this I will personally drive to where you are and beat your lunch out you.I have art as my job first and foremost so I don’t even have to think about something to “fall back on” as modeling is just something I do for added publicity for my art.And actually thankful in the aspect that I’m not chosen as a model because I’m pretty or youthful looking.I have more of the sort of Diamanda Galas thing going on where people just use me as a model because I’m a weirdo.BUT I’m damn fucking tired of there being no 50/50 as a model or as somebody that is treated like a free freak show to people.Especially if you don’t do nudity,which doesn’t even pay enough to make anything worthwhile.100.00 for say 200 photos and you have to split the 100.00 with the photographer isn’t shit.And if you aren’t willing to lay and spread you get even less and I’m sorry but I think it’s bullshit.
Birthday Wishlist: my birthday is coming up Dec 5th you can find my wishlist here http://www.uglyart.net/uglyshyla/wishlist.html
Just got back from shooting with Alas Vera http://www.myspace.com/veraellen1 she’s such a sweet girl and talented.we shot at my aunt Jolynn’s house out in the Boonies.
We didn’t get bit by any Louisiana critters.But we did see a FAT Skink and found a mummified rat.Which I was more then excited then I should be over because I NEVER see anything mummified here.It’s too humid.I also scared the hell out of the Cows on my Aunt’s property.There were 3 looking at me like they didn’t know what the hell I was,so I tried to call them over so I could pet them and they tucked in their big cow asses and RAN.The whole herd just ran for their lives.LOL.I don’t know if they can see color or not but they ran for their lives.They had a new baby calf out there so I don’t know if that had something to do with it or they hate blue haired but I also had contacts on maybe they freaked out over that.
I know I have to watch myself around bees because they think my hair is a big ratty flower and same goes for humming birds.But I haven’t ever had the cows tear ass like that away from me.
We should have pic’s soon,she was even awesome enough to get some nice shots of my dolls.I keep telling her she should also hire herself out as a photographer for artwork.She’s good at it and allot of the other visual artist like myself are either new to photography or don’t know how the photograph their work at all.It’s one of those things you don’t think about till later down the road when you are actually selling work.You never think you will get to the point of anybody wanting your artwork much less have to worry about having nice photos of it because 1000’s of people will look at it.
She was also nice enough to let me gawk at her new lighting equipment since I need to invest in my own soon.
I had a white wedding dress laying around for awhile I was planning to use for a shoot.I knew it “fit me” because the bottom of it fit but when I put it on today I didn’t realize my boobs didn’t fit in it.So I did the logical thing and ripped the seams at the armpit and I was able to wedge them in there at that point.Now you all know why sometimes I wear old dresses with the armpits ripped out.LOL
In my one of my recent past post about non-I look like a slightly edgier version of a mainstream “alt” models and them being examples for girls to look up at and relate too my friend Gigi posted some “eye candy” aka photos of examples of all types of beauty in the alt world.So I figured I’d do the same.Most of the gals listed are buddies of mine and are perfect examples you can be beautiful if you are any type of Alt gal,girls of color,curvy girls,tall girls,short,healthy fit what I call ballerina bodies ect ect.Some of them combine all of the above.They are walking talking proof it’s ok not to be the one type of model that is pushed in our faces my the alt and mainstream world.They are all different and all beautiful.
I encourage you to add and support them.Click their pic’s to go to their myspaces.
It always surprises me when people think I’m either tall or thin in real life.I guess people can’t tell I have a curvy figure since I don’t do allot of modeling in revealing clothing.People are also surprised at that fact I have a large bust again I guess it’s because I don’t wear revealing clothing allot.And I make allot of my own clothes so I can fit it properly and if it’s bras or something low cut I can make it to where to much don’t show or fall out.LOL.A friend of mine was telling me that her daughter said after seeing my pic’s that I was likely lucky enough to be skinny with no problems.
This is me when I’m in one of my thinner periods.I’m like a size LARGE there around 38C-28-38,I can’t remember in all of my adult or even teenage life when I was smaller then a large.
I’d post a bigger image of that but I’m using the code from my myspace photos.Click the pic and it should take ya to the full size.
I have the typical Cajun woman’s body where I’m short and stocky and we usually always have a big bust and a bubble butt.Which is one of the reasons I have never even tried to be like Paris Hilton skinny.I’m fairly sure if I didn’t eat for a year I’d still have a hourglass figure so it would be pointless.
Which is a blessing and a curse at the same time.I don’t have to make myself eat only celery or something because again even if I’d starve myself I’d still be curvy so it’s pointless.But then again it’s hard to find clothes off the rack to fit properly,even sewing casual dresses for myself can be hard to try and get something to be large enough to squeeze your boobs in it and also have it be fitted in your waist.I almost always have to make darts in dresses or tops I buy.And when you are naturally big busted if you wear a top or loose dress that fits your bust it will be loose all over and you will look fat unless you buy it almost a size too small.And let me tell you having a naturally big bust sounds like it would be something you would really want but it’s really annoying as hell.Put a brick in a purse and hang it around your neck and see how sexy and voluptuous you feel.LOL.Hell I don’t even show my boobs so they don’t even have a exploitative value to me,they are just heavy things that make my shoulder hurt after a long day of sewing or sculpting.
Every since I hit puberty I have had a curvy figure,I have never ever been skinny.Again it’s annoying in some aspects and good in others.And the tall thing I don’t know why people always think I will be tall in person.I think it’s the big hair.LOL
Which again is why I don’t understand why allot of the newer alt models feel then need to be stick thin.It’s one thing to be really fit but it’s another thing to look like you are on the cocaine diet.Like I have said in the past if I were trying to get into alt modeling now and not already be established I would likely not even try because there are hardly any more varying body types,looks and even skin colors.Even the pin up girls are getting to where allot of them look alike.
Like I said I have ALWAYS had a sort of Jayne Mansfield figure.
I love this dress of hers.
Which would be great if I lived in the 1950’s.LOL.That is one awesome thing about Louisiana everybody is short and chubby here so I’m considered “thin”,God bless the south.LOL
Like I said though it’s sort of disheartening that so much of alt modeling had become almost Homogenized.If I was a 16 year girl wanting to get into alt modeling if I had the body I have I’d be totally dishearten.Hopefully myself and the other actual really alternative to the “alternative” *the girls with womanly bodies,the ethnic girls and the girls who are REAL bad asses, can at least give then some hope that they can also become established.Granted getting into alt modeling isn’t like real modeling where there is a golden ring of money and fame at the end of the rainbow.But at least some of the younger girls can maybe see that it’s ok to be ACTUALLY DIFFERENT even from the cookie cutter alt girl next door bullshit.
I have listed some new clothing designs on my clothing Etsy executionstyle.etsy.com
I’ll be listing some other things over the next few days.
I also will have some of what I call Oops Items for sale which I sell for cheap,which are either vintage things I have silk screened that may have some small flaws that I use to test first runs of the screens OR are things that the cats have usually “helped” be with by trampling in the paint when I’m not looking. *thanks Grumpy*