I refuse to let people’s shitty rude and idiotic behavior turn me into a heartless,unkind bastard.
This past month alone I have gotten into it with several different people who have nothing to do with one another because tried to be polite or nice.Or have had people be rude to me for no reason what so ever!
People like that are the ones that turn people into horrible cut throat,conniving,innocent people abusing bastards and I REFUSE to let people do that to ME!
I’m southern so I was raised to where you are kind to people unless they give you a reason to be,and in turn people if they have a OUNCE of behavior skills or what we call “proper raising” will do the same in return.But some have neither and they should be ashamed to behave like that in public and worse on public forums where God and country can see their shitty rude behavior.
I have some amazing,awesome friends or even just people I have never met in person in my life that I know through the internet,who have gone out of their way to help me or be kind to me or are just generally be awesome.And I will NOT have the shitty bad apples in the bunch ruin me from being nice to people and getting to meet or extend kindness to people like that.I will not let them ruin my desire to be kind to people like that.
But Lord knows I can see why some people become horrible human beings and are just outright assholes to their fellow man be in strangers or close friends.People like that really turn you off and make me want to be one of those elitist assholes on the internet that speaks to no one even if they speak to me first or are showing appreciation for what I do.
I’m also so annoyed with the idea that just because you are a Satanist you are supposed to treat everybody like shit,or lie,cheat and steal even from friends to get your way.Being a Satanist you are supposed to take pride in yourself and your behavior and if you behave in that shitty of a manner you have NOTHING to be proud of.If you are incapable of helping a friend or even wipe your own ass without conniving somebody into doing it for you,then you have NOTHING to be proud of.At that point you haven’t even earned the right to breath air.
I don’t appreciate uncalled for rude or shitty behavior and I will not tolerate it.If you do it I will call you out and publicly shame because you damn well deserve it.I beseech you all to the the same when somebody is behaving in a uncalled for rotten manner.Maybe if the “mark” them they will feel the sting of shame and learn to behave as decent human beings!
“Now I beseech you, brethren, mark them which cause divisions and offences contrary to the doctrine which ye have learned; and avoid them” (Roman 16:17).
This is something I constant babble about because I’m so confused and disturbed by it,And I’m sure y’all think I sound like a broken record but I don’t care.
But am I the only one totally put off my the instance of anorexia in some *I don’t want to say allot because I hope it’s not as bad as I think* of the alt models with anorexia or that have either eating disorders or are on things like the Cocaine Diet.And before y’all start I’m not talking about girls that are naturally very thin.I know that some girls are very thin naturally and also shouldn’t be made to feel like a outcast and that beauty is ONLY a Marilyn Monroe body.
Don’t think I don’t know that some of y’all are reading this and saying “well everybody doesn’t want to look like your fat,big boobed ass”.And I have nothing against girls wanting to be thin/fit.
But I do have a problem with even the subcultures showing everybody trying to fit into one mold,and in the prevalence of what I call the Alt Bro Ho’s,the “alt” models,musicians ect that look like a Bro Ho with maybe a odd colored streak in their hair or a “alt” tattoo.Need I remind people that alternative and subculture is SUPPOSED to mean different then the mainstream.
The reason it creeps me out is it creeps me out for the generation behind us.I know how difficult it was at times growing up being “different”.You have to deal with enough shit from the “normal” people around you which is enough to make you crack.But what the hell are the say 15 year old punk,emo,goth *and insert subculture here* girls dealing with,when not only do you have to feel like a weirdo because you don’t fit in with normal people but have to deal with being bombarded with images in your own subculture that beat you over the head to show you should be sexy or be stick thin.It’s not good for normal girls to have to deal with that much less when you are a subculture girl and already feel like a outcast.
Even more weird is the fact I can understand the stress that makes mainstream models turn to things like anorexia,because if you are a very well known say Playboy model you get MONEY out of it,if you are a big enough name you get good money from it.But if you are a alt model even if you are doing paid erotica or flat out porn you very very very likely aren’t making bank.I don’t even really understand why alt models go through that much damn trouble.Some alt erotica girls have told me it’s because knowing people will see you naked and see every little bit of you makes you want to be as thin as possible,and the camera adding pounds on you at certain angles ect.Again I can totally understand at that point if you want to be as FIT as possible,because you like looking fit and what to look that way,again thought be fit don’t starve yourself.
Plus if you have to eat nothing to be really thin maybe your body and your genetics aren’t made for your body to be that way.
Like 99.9% of the women out there I’d like to be a few pounds lighter,I’m uncomfortable with my boobs being this big because it’s hard to find clothes to fit.I’d like to be a few pounds lighter and have no delusions or desire to look like Mary Kate Olsen.I also realize that I’m Cajun and my body is not made to look like a skinny,flat white girl body.I would have to be on death’s door to look that way,and I still would have boobs and a bubble butt.
I think that is also something lost on allot of girls.The fact that you body has a basic shape it’s supposed to be,and especially if you are of certain ethnic varieties.
I was also reading about how the number of black girls with anorexia is rising,again I want to grab these girls and shake them and tell them you body is not SUPPOSED to be straight up and down like a stick.Your body is made differently and if you try and lose your curves they will not go away,so it’s pointless to try.And if you do get to the point of looking like Paris Hilton you will be at death’s door.
Thank God that when I first started traveling with my art I noticed that when I went up north ect that all the women looked different from me.They were taller and not as curvy ect.After traveling around a bit and coming back home I realized that Cajun women have a certain body type,and there was nothing wrong with it and no matter what I did I wouldn’t look more like a Caucasian women because I’m not MADE that way.
I don’t know it just disturbs me that the mainstream bullshit of not being pretty if you aren’t thin,sexy,have straight hair ect are bulldozing their way into places like the subcultures and also in the ethnic communities.
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Modeling jewelry for http://www.Sphinxart.com also visit her myspace to see some of her cool work.She is a ceramic and glass artist like myself and her work is very affordable.http://www.myspace.com/sphinxart
The Dancing ManDuh did a interview with me and just recently posted it.She actually asked some interesting questions so check out the interview and blog here http://manduh.jasonspadaro.com.
We went and saw the Murder Junkies with a few or our friends last night like
Cootie Von Ghoul and Alas Vera we had soooo much fun!I hardily every go out here locally because there is never anything fun to go too.
Merle has a fellow helping him with the merch table so I got to sit and gossip with him for awhile.I love Merle he’s the coolest man in rock n roll.While I was sitting at the bar with Merle a girl with a low cut top on passed by and he mentioned that is one of the reasons he likes playing down here because all the girls here have great figures.I told him that makes him more awesome that her appreciates the big bust and bubble butts of of us Cajun gals.LOL
Dino got naked as usual but he grabbed the mic and started screaming about swine flu and making wonderful corny jokes.This one teenager watching show must have just heard “punk rock show” and didn’t know who the Murder Junkies were.My mother said he when Dino got naked and started running around the kid would squeal in horror like a little girl.I’m so sorry I missed that.LOL
Vera got some really nice band photos of the Murder Junkies before the show.Including Dino naked and with his drumbsticks in his “neither regions” I think Dino took a shine to her he kept chatting with her.LOL
A local Louisiana band called
Peckernut was one of the opening acts for them.They were all also very nice fellows.The singer even bought me and Cootie a beer.Since I don’t drink I let Cootie have it and just told her I’d help hold her up if her legs gave out.I told her we were just each other’s date for the night,her future hubby had to work so he couldn’t come to the show and I didn’t have a date,which I think is because shove guys in a corner for bumping into me.LOL
While The Murder Junkies were playing some guys started a small most pit,being as Cootie and I are both short and scared we might miss something we stood in the front off to the side of the most pit.
Naturally they started throwing themselves on us while moshing,so we started shoving them all off to the other corner.
After awhile I noticed the “mosh pit” moved to the corner furthest away from us.LOL.After I realized most of the guys in the mosh pit were tall really thin guys I think all started to shuffle away from us.Cootie is a Masseuse and I hit clay all day and our forearms were about the size of most of the guy’s legs.Oh well you shouldn’t shove into girls,even if our arms are bigger then yours.LOL
The Murder Junkies are on a long tour,you can find their tour info on their myspace Murder Junkies Myspace so if they come to your area go out and support them!And if you go out one of their shows make sure to check out the merch table,Merle is selling these really cool red Richard Ramirez t-shirts.Which I am a proud owner of now.
Me and Merle Allin doing our part to spread swine flu. http://www.myspace.com/murderjunkies
I ❤ Merle Allin.We look like a really frightening old school country and western duo.
Me and my friend Cootie Von Ghoul http://www.myspace.com/cootiebitches
Alas Vera http://www.myspace.com/veraellen1 and Dino Sex http://www.myspace.com/6415792 .I think Dino took a shine to her.LOL
Model : Me/Ugly Shyla Photos by Alas Vera http://www.myspace.com/veraellen1
No Entry.No how,no way,Not even with the jaws of life.Not like anybody would WANT to get in there.LOL
Family Portrait of me with my work.
A few other shots
Hair,makeup and dress by me.
More photos,and pricing info on the piece can be found here
This is a original assemblage by Ugly Art Dolls/Ugly Shyla aka Me.All images and designs are (c) 2008 Ugly Art Dolls/Ugly Shyla.
The centerpiece of the assemblage is two Siamese twins,with a embroidered white christening gown made from vintage cotton.The embroidery on the bottom is a faint blue/gray and their little bonnets are trimmed in cream and baby blue vintage lace.They are holding a paper that has a short poem on it.
They are mounted on a vintage red wooden frame with a cloth background,so it looked like they are coming out of the frame Alice Through The Looking Glass style.
The whole piece is 18 X 11 1/2 inches,and is made to hang on a wall.
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