Hey Models I have a question.Most of
you are in your mid twenties,are pushing 30 or are like me and ARE 30.Now I want to know how how much many of these adorers,stalkers and fans that we all talk to and try and help and just give general attention to have put into OUR BANK ACCOUNT?How much have they given us all that we will have to fall back on when modeling is no longer a option?This is why most of this is fairy glamour or as I call it bullshit we just try our best to exploit.And if ANY of you give me shit for daring to say this I will personally drive to where you are and beat your lunch out you.I have art as my job first and foremost so I don’t even have to think about something to “fall back on” as modeling is just something I do for added publicity for my art.And actually thankful in the aspect that I’m not chosen as a model because I’m pretty or youthful looking.I have more of the sort of Diamanda Galas thing going on where people just use me as a model because I’m a weirdo.BUT I’m damn fucking tired of there being no 50/50 as a model or as somebody that is treated like a free freak show to people.Especially if you don’t do nudity,which doesn’t even pay enough to make anything worthwhile.100.00 for say 200 photos and you have to split the 100.00 with the photographer isn’t shit.And if you aren’t willing to lay and spread you get even less and I’m sorry but I think it’s bullshit.
I’m really curious to know why some girls “sellout” for lack of a better word and go from being alt porn girls to changing the way they look and dress so they can be mainstream porn workers.
I can understand if change your style because it was a phase you were going through or you just change your style.
But I’m wondering about the girls who change their look for work.Sort of the way you have people who hide their tattoos or piercings or whatnot for a professional job.
The thing that makes me curious is I just wonder if they get something out of the change from a business standpoint.
To me it would make it harder to go from a alt porn worker to a mainstream one.It’s sort of the big fish in a big sea thing.
Like if I decided I’d make mainstream dolls and have to get into competing with Barbie.Yes in theory you could stand to make more from it but the chance for it to happen is almost non existent.
Of course I’m sure it is better for some girls from a business standpoint because most alt anything or anybody is broke ass and I’m sure mainstream porn at least pays girl enough to almost pay half the rent that month.
Again I’m just curious about why some girls make the change.
My friend Aunia Kahn who has been a friend,artist buddy and also the designer behind the layout for my uglyart.net website is going through a terrible time right now.Her brother recently took his own life on V-day and her mother is struggling with cancer.They need help covering the cost of funeral cost so please please if you can donate to them please do so. Info and how to donate cane be found here http://aunia-kahn.blogspot.com/2010/02/asking-for-help.html
I’m going to try and make a doll or something and sell and donate all the proceeds to her so y’all keep a eye out for it.
Y’all all know this was coming.Pic’s of my ovaries from my ultrasounds.No body get worried I’m not dying I just have cyst and Pcos allot of women have it and it’s not deadly just annoying.And you know me I find grossness slightly amusing even if it involves my own body.LOL Info on the disorder.And I guess I’m posting this a tiny bit I’m also doing this to raise women’s awareness about it.And encourage them to get treatment.
And onto the pic’s…You can see my ovaries circled in white.The black sport are the cyst and you can see my right one is more cyst then ovary.LOL.The little gray parts around it are ovary clinging for dear life.LOL
We went and saw the Murder Junkies with a few or our friends last night like
Cootie Von Ghoul and Alas Vera we had soooo much fun!I hardily every go out here locally because there is never anything fun to go too.
Merle has a fellow helping him with the merch table so I got to sit and gossip with him for awhile.I love Merle he’s the coolest man in rock n roll.While I was sitting at the bar with Merle a girl with a low cut top on passed by and he mentioned that is one of the reasons he likes playing down here because all the girls here have great figures.I told him that makes him more awesome that her appreciates the big bust and bubble butts of of us Cajun gals.LOL
Dino got naked as usual but he grabbed the mic and started screaming about swine flu and making wonderful corny jokes.This one teenager watching show must have just heard “punk rock show” and didn’t know who the Murder Junkies were.My mother said he when Dino got naked and started running around the kid would squeal in horror like a little girl.I’m so sorry I missed that.LOL
Vera got some really nice band photos of the Murder Junkies before the show.Including Dino naked and with his drumbsticks in his “neither regions” I think Dino took a shine to her he kept chatting with her.LOL
A local Louisiana band called
Peckernut was one of the opening acts for them.They were all also very nice fellows.The singer even bought me and Cootie a beer.Since I don’t drink I let Cootie have it and just told her I’d help hold her up if her legs gave out.I told her we were just each other’s date for the night,her future hubby had to work so he couldn’t come to the show and I didn’t have a date,which I think is because shove guys in a corner for bumping into me.LOL
While The Murder Junkies were playing some guys started a small most pit,being as Cootie and I are both short and scared we might miss something we stood in the front off to the side of the most pit.
Naturally they started throwing themselves on us while moshing,so we started shoving them all off to the other corner.
After awhile I noticed the “mosh pit” moved to the corner furthest away from us.LOL.After I realized most of the guys in the mosh pit were tall really thin guys I think all started to shuffle away from us.Cootie is a Masseuse and I hit clay all day and our forearms were about the size of most of the guy’s legs.Oh well you shouldn’t shove into girls,even if our arms are bigger then yours.LOL
The Murder Junkies are on a long tour,you can find their tour info on their myspace Murder Junkies Myspace so if they come to your area go out and support them!And if you go out one of their shows make sure to check out the merch table,Merle is selling these really cool red Richard Ramirez t-shirts.Which I am a proud owner of now.
Me and Merle Allin doing our part to spread swine flu. http://www.myspace.com/murderjunkies
I ❤ Merle Allin.We look like a really frightening old school country and western duo.
Me and my friend Cootie Von Ghoul http://www.myspace.com/cootiebitches
Alas Vera http://www.myspace.com/veraellen1 and Dino Sex http://www.myspace.com/6415792 .I think Dino took a shine to her.LOL