Hey Models I have a question.Most of
you are in your mid twenties,are pushing 30 or are like me and ARE 30.Now I want to know how how much many of these adorers,stalkers and fans that we all talk to and try and help and just give general attention to have put into OUR BANK ACCOUNT?How much have they given us all that we will have to fall back on when modeling is no longer a option?This is why most of this is fairy glamour or as I call it bullshit we just try our best to exploit.And if ANY of you give me shit for daring to say this I will personally drive to where you are and beat your lunch out you.I have art as my job first and foremost so I don’t even have to think about something to “fall back on” as modeling is just something I do for added publicity for my art.And actually thankful in the aspect that I’m not chosen as a model because I’m pretty or youthful looking.I have more of the sort of Diamanda Galas thing going on where people just use me as a model because I’m a weirdo.BUT I’m damn fucking tired of there being no 50/50 as a model or as somebody that is treated like a free freak show to people.Especially if you don’t do nudity,which doesn’t even pay enough to make anything worthwhile.100.00 for say 200 photos and you have to split the 100.00 with the photographer isn’t shit.And if you aren’t willing to lay and spread you get even less and I’m sorry but I think it’s bullshit.
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This is something I constant babble about because I’m so confused and disturbed by it,And I’m sure y’all think I sound like a broken record but I don’t care.
But am I the only one totally put off my the instance of anorexia in some *I don’t want to say allot because I hope it’s not as bad as I think* of the alt models with anorexia or that have either eating disorders or are on things like the Cocaine Diet.And before y’all start I’m not talking about girls that are naturally very thin.I know that some girls are very thin naturally and also shouldn’t be made to feel like a outcast and that beauty is ONLY a Marilyn Monroe body.
Don’t think I don’t know that some of y’all are reading this and saying “well everybody doesn’t want to look like your fat,big boobed ass”.And I have nothing against girls wanting to be thin/fit.
But I do have a problem with even the subcultures showing everybody trying to fit into one mold,and in the prevalence of what I call the Alt Bro Ho’s,the “alt” models,musicians ect that look like a Bro Ho with maybe a odd colored streak in their hair or a “alt” tattoo.Need I remind people that alternative and subculture is SUPPOSED to mean different then the mainstream.
The reason it creeps me out is it creeps me out for the generation behind us.I know how difficult it was at times growing up being “different”.You have to deal with enough shit from the “normal” people around you which is enough to make you crack.But what the hell are the say 15 year old punk,emo,goth *and insert subculture here* girls dealing with,when not only do you have to feel like a weirdo because you don’t fit in with normal people but have to deal with being bombarded with images in your own subculture that beat you over the head to show you should be sexy or be stick thin.It’s not good for normal girls to have to deal with that much less when you are a subculture girl and already feel like a outcast.
Even more weird is the fact I can understand the stress that makes mainstream models turn to things like anorexia,because if you are a very well known say Playboy model you get MONEY out of it,if you are a big enough name you get good money from it.But if you are a alt model even if you are doing paid erotica or flat out porn you very very very likely aren’t making bank.I don’t even really understand why alt models go through that much damn trouble.Some alt erotica girls have told me it’s because knowing people will see you naked and see every little bit of you makes you want to be as thin as possible,and the camera adding pounds on you at certain angles ect.Again I can totally understand at that point if you want to be as FIT as possible,because you like looking fit and what to look that way,again thought be fit don’t starve yourself.
Plus if you have to eat nothing to be really thin maybe your body and your genetics aren’t made for your body to be that way.
Like 99.9% of the women out there I’d like to be a few pounds lighter,I’m uncomfortable with my boobs being this big because it’s hard to find clothes to fit.I’d like to be a few pounds lighter and have no delusions or desire to look like Mary Kate Olsen.I also realize that I’m Cajun and my body is not made to look like a skinny,flat white girl body.I would have to be on death’s door to look that way,and I still would have boobs and a bubble butt.
I think that is also something lost on allot of girls.The fact that you body has a basic shape it’s supposed to be,and especially if you are of certain ethnic varieties.
I was also reading about how the number of black girls with anorexia is rising,again I want to grab these girls and shake them and tell them you body is not SUPPOSED to be straight up and down like a stick.Your body is made differently and if you try and lose your curves they will not go away,so it’s pointless to try.And if you do get to the point of looking like Paris Hilton you will be at death’s door.
Thank God that when I first started traveling with my art I noticed that when I went up north ect that all the women looked different from me.They were taller and not as curvy ect.After traveling around a bit and coming back home I realized that Cajun women have a certain body type,and there was nothing wrong with it and no matter what I did I wouldn’t look more like a Caucasian women because I’m not MADE that way.
I don’t know it just disturbs me that the mainstream bullshit of not being pretty if you aren’t thin,sexy,have straight hair ect are bulldozing their way into places like the subcultures and also in the ethnic communities.
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Modeling jewelry for http://www.Sphinxart.com also visit her myspace to see some of her cool work.She is a ceramic and glass artist like myself and her work is very affordable.http://www.myspace.com/sphinxart
Happy 4th to everybody especially you military folks.
I didn’t have time to take another pic since of the stress of my pug passing away.
But y’all enjoyed the last one and my friend Sphinx http://www.myspace.com/sphinxart fancied it up for me so here ya go.I have also been sending the pic to the active military folks over seas,thanks to Sphinx making it more post card worthy. So if you have any body in the military you’d like me to send one too just send me the name and addy or even e-mail addy and I’ll put it on my list when I get some more printed.
Anyhoo happy 4th!
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